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beh // 2002-03-26

beh. today is making me uptight, thanks mostly to an inbox full of irritation. i shouldn't take work so seriously, but i feel that edge up bitterness creeping up on me again. and i was doing so well for a while!

i had plans to go to yoga tonight, but of course i'm nowhere near going. i put on some excercise shorts last night to test out my yoga look, and i felt like a complete cow. and the thing is, i never feel like a cow. i usually feel pretty sexy. i just started imagining all the other women in the class and how they're probably all healthy and lithe and glowing and look great in anything and eat good food and drink gallons of water and meditate in the morning. and here i am, eating chocolate chip cookies for breakfast and the high point of my day is purchasing japanese cola candies at kiki's candyland and playing ms. pacman twice with arno! double beh.

but c just called and i'm going to go home and cook a lovely dinner and he's going to come over later to join me. delicious! now to come up with something fabulous to make...

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