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glum // 2003-08-07

it's a bitch getting caught up on all your favorite diaries when you're as far behind as i am.

c and i are down in longview. we've been here since sunday night. his mom went in for surgery (to have her carotid artery scrubbed clean), and he came down to take care of her. she was supposed to have the surgery on tuesday, but in the middle of the procedure there was an emergency in another operating room and her surgeon was the only doctor who could help, so they had to stop in the middle of everything and close her up and bump her to the next day. it was exceptionally lame. i hope the other guy was about to die, or something (and that he's okay now), because she's pretty grumpy. an extra day in the hospital all drugged up is certainly no fun.

it's hard not to be glum here. last night i was watching tv and cheers came on, and the theme song made me want to cry. why is that 80s tv theme song music so sad and lonely? then, to top it off, c came downstairs and told me that cynthia doyon killed herself. oh, cynthia, why? you were so lovely and so funny and your show was the best way to spend a saturday evening. c and i always joked about how much she loved kylie minogue, and how she played her new singles even though they didn't fit with her show at all.

we drove down to the beach today on the columbia, and i taught c how to drive a stick in the boat launch parking lot. he picked it up really quickly--i was impressed. when i learned how to drive a stick i was cursing and crying and feeling really sorry for myself.

it's amazing how you can put on weight and not even notice it until one day you see a picture of yourself and you realize that you really let yourself go. i do these triathlons and shit, but i'm still putting on pounds. it's depressing. seriously. i had a triathlon on whidbey island last weekend, and i kicked ass on the swim, but the bike and the run kicked my ass. my next triathlon is on the 17th, so i don't have much time before then to improve. i seriously thought this season would be different from last year, but i guess i'm going to have to start saying that about next season.

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