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oh, look out, it's the crazy girl // 2003-09-23

these are things i'm thinking now...

what do i wear for my first day of school and for orientation tomorrow? how long should i plan to get to bastyr in the morning? will the traffic be bad? if i get there too early i'll look like a nerd, if i get there too late, i'll look like a slacker. are loans a sort of financial aid? if so, i should go to a financial aid interview. but if not, then will i look like an idiot for showing up and thinking that i had financial aid when i don't and only have loans? what should i bring to the acupuncture program potluck tomorrow night? i'd really like to bake something fancy, but will everyone balk at baked goods made with refined sugar and white flour? but would i look like a poser or that i'm trying too hard for bringing something healthy? what if i oversleep tomorrow? i've been waking up at 9:00 or 9:30 for the past nearly three months. waking up at 6:30 is going to kill me! what if everyone in my entering class is a big hippie. will i be able to tolerate that many dreadlocks and the smell of patchouli for three and half years? what if everyone is smarter than me and i just don't get it? what if i can't understand my chinese professors' accents? how will i be able to go to school full time and still do freelance writing? will i get enough work to pay for everything i need? or will i clear out my savings account in only a few months? what if i can't find my classrooms on the first day of class. what if my professors don't like me. what if i can't make friends and i'm a loner for the whole program. gaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!

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