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there are severed head in golden gate park // 2003-01-06

i woke up eary this morning, worried i was going to oversleep and not make it to the first day of class on time, and when i saw that it was only 4am i tried to go back to sleep, but kept seeing and imagining severed heads in the living room, and then i realized i also had to pee (and had been dreaming about going to the bathroom and thinking that it was such a relief and then waking up to realize that i hadn't peed at all), so i woke c up and he got up with me and stood outside the bathroom door and talked to me while i peed so i wouldn't get scared, and then he turned on a light in the living room and closed the closet door completely so i wouldn't get more scared, and then he sang me a song by some band whose name i can't remember now because, well, i was pretty sleepy, with lyrics that went something like, "there are severed heads in golden gate park," and spooned me until i fell asleep again.

and this morning i had a follow up appointment with the ear/nose/throat doctor about the allergies and (apparently nonexistent) polyp i came in about nearly a month ago, and not only did i have to wait in the exam room for at least 20 minutes, but when the doctor came in she said, "so, did you see the allergist?" and i looked at her blankly because she never said anything about me seeing an allergist that last time i was there, and then she looked liked she knew she made a mistake and said, "oh, yes, we had your blood sent out for testing," but then she couldn't find the results and realized that the lab never sent them, so she left the exam room to get them, and i waited another 15 minutes (and got sleepier and sleepier) and then when she finally came back, she told me that i essentially have no allergies, or at least, they aren't "serious", and that i should keep taking flonase and allegra, and then i complained and said i'm miserable all the time, and that every time i blow my nose my right ear gets plugged up from the pressure, and she said that maybe i should try different medication, and gave me a bag full of samples and sent me out, and that was it.

right now, i'd take severed heads in the living room over shitty doctors any day.

and isn't it a small world, tess used to date someone in my stepbrother's band from edmonton?!

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